It’s a love and hate relationship
I have to admit, when I created this blog a few years ago, I didn’t quite know what I was getting myself into (or actually that I found a new passion after ending my career as a professional figure skater). It’s brought me many incredible opportunities that I didn’t even think I ever deserved and I am forever grateful for that.
But, it comes with a trade-off. It has robbed me of moments. It also brought dark sides with it that might not have come up if I chose an other hobby? It has made me think about my life in a different way, in a more “marketable way.” It has become something that’s nearly impossible to take back.
I am extremely glad that I never became a “professional blogger,” and that I’ve always kept my career separate for this reason so far. Even with having a steady-income job or studying full-time, some weeks the pressure feels like a lot. You want to manage so many different things all together – friends, family, job, sports, studies … I know that bloggers are an easy target for snickering – (look how great they have it, wow they’re getting THAT, they so don’t deserve that, or just sheer shock at how many things get thrown at bloggers) But here’s a few thoughts from the other side that go through my head many days:
- Maybe I would have rather just paid for this so I can spend the day with my friends and not necessarily have to take a picture in it
- YAY I’m going to this scenic vacation spot… that means pictures (wouldn’t it be a waste if we didn’t take any?)
- Comments on body shape are ongoing …
- General inability to disconnect … (that’s why you should try a Social Media Detox?)
- And the worst, comparing. Which I unfortunately do just to often. But it’s inevitable.
Like I said, for me, blogging is a beautiful and creative outlet. I love to take photographs and share my passion with you. Getting dressed is fun for me, vintage clothes make my heart beat faster, and the fact that I am able to work with amazing people and get to know likeminded humans makes me so happy. But, some weeks I just wonder what it is like to be a “normal” person who just uses social media to share pictures with their friends. If I could go back, I wouldn’t. But if there’s a perfect balance – share it with me 🙂